Saturday, August 20, 2005
it has been almost three weeks since i made the jump from socal to the bay, and i must say that things are going wonderfully! derrick and gian made the 6.5 hour long trip with david and me and my uhaul full of crap a few weeks ago, and i really think that them being here with me made leaving so much easier. the night i left (we departed at around 9 or 10 o'clock at night!) angie had the most wonderful surprise for me: a slideshow of pictures and video clips!!! (by the way, more to come about that awesome slideshow later...) and as we started the drive home, clips of the slidesow kept playing over and over in my head, and all i could think about was how much i was going to miss all of my friends, and how hard life was gonna be without them right next to me. there were moments during the quiet times of our trip up that i would get teary-eyed thinking about all that i was leaving behind. BUT, like i mentioned earlier, the boys really did lessen my separation anxiety. we played some really fun games...you know...the kind of games liwanag likes to make up on retreats and random hang out nights? THOSE kind of games...hehe. it was fun. and revealing. =D
gian stayed with us until saturday (we left wednesday night) and derrick until monday, and we did sooo much tourist-y stuff! we even visited the full house house!!! we did all the usual things first-timers to the bay do: the crooked street, pier 39, golden gate bridge, coit tower...and we even tried to go to napa to do some wine tasting! but, alas, our kuriput-ness (thanks, m-ang!) held us back for paying for wine, so we took a stroll through their "downtown" area (one-story buildings surrounding a small grassy area in the middle) and tasted some cheese for FREE. we hella went back lots of times!!! oh, and we also got to visit MISSION #2 - Mission San Francisco Solano de Sonoma. it was way smaller than our mission #1, San Diego Mission, but it was cool nonetheless.
when they both left, i was really sad...because i knew that it meant that i was gonna have to start my life up in the Bay without them...without any of my friends. it took me a little while to realize, however, that in the absence of friends you find many more gifts that you would not think otherwise would be there. i have found comfort in my family...in being home. it is a comfort that cannot really be explained with words. being in this house...in this room...surrounded by family gives me a deep sense of peace, allowing me to be sure of the person that i am, and giving me visions of the person i want to become. and, though i know it won't always be smooth sailing on this boat, i know that God has great dreams for this family of mine. david has also been such a strong source of comfort for me as well. with him being here with me, and both of us getting ready to embark on this 2+ year journey called "grad school", i know that i am never alone on this walk.
lately, i've had a lot of time to myself since i am currently unemployed, and i've had the chance to really listen and be still during those quiet moments throughout my day. and it is during those quiet moments that i am able to hear His voice calling me to do His work. this fall, not only will i be attending usf, but also the catholic studies institute where i will be taking classes to certify me in catholic theological studies and lay ministry. and, i am also looking at helping out with the children's faith formation at st. ignatius church.
God has the most beautiful dreams...
and so, my friends, this is where i leave all of you. well, actually...not really. i figured since i am starting my new life i ought to have a fresh start with EVERYTHING, even with blogging. this will be my very last post on this bloggy, until i can muster up enough motivation to create myself a new one (i promised david i would set up his blog before mine!=/). farewell, confessions of the heart.
...and i thought i could have fit all of this stuff into a cargo van. what was i thinking?!?!
so sad =(
we got there hella early in the morning after driving all night, so the boys knocked out in my empty room. yes, everyone, david and derrick are sharing ONE futon...just ONE.
walking through the streets of sf
much to my dismay, we took the bus...A LOT.
mission san francisco solano de sonoma. in sonoma...not san francisco.
david & derrick put together my bed in my newly painted room!!! =)
a MONSTER chair for a MONSTER guy. haha!!! can anybody guess where this is at???
dear friends,
"What shall I say? Everything that I could say would fade into insignificance compared with what my heart feels, and your hearts feel, at this moment." - JPII
i'll be seeing you...
love, dee.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
the following reading is taken from the book of daily inspirations flo & wolfe gave to me entitled Spiritual Advice from John Paul II. today's excerpt reads...The Christian must learn to carry his or her cross with humility, trust, abandonment to God's will, finding in Christ's cross support and comfort amid life's troubles. May the father grant that at every difficult moment we will be able to pray: "Adoramus Te, Christe, et benedicimus tibi." "We adore you, O Christ, and we bless you, because by your holy cross you have redeemed the world."
i thought that this day would never come. actually, during these past few weeks i wished for it not to. this last week has been wonderful. i have never spent so much time in the company of friends...surrounded by love and laughter. it was awesome! imma have to write it down in a list format or else it would be too overwhelming:
Last Week:
Monday: nice, quiet dinner with gian at pasta bravo (nice pick, gp!), during which we talked about what sorts of going-away activities we could do the week before i had to leave. we planned lots of fun stuff, and the cool thing is that we actually followed through with every single one of them! (sidenote: great planning, gian...you should think about being a party planner/coordinator of some kind. you know exactly how to get the masses participating!) i never got to thank you for having dinner with me that night, gian. have i ever told you that you're awesome?! oh, and by the way, you're riding in MY car up north...6 hours just YOU & ME...hahaha. this is going to be interesting...
Tuesday: my last LOG meeting for a long time. one week to be exact...that's a very long time. GREAT meeting...very touching affirmations and prayers. i remember looking around the room that night and seeing sooo many different generations of LOGers. you could visibly see the different generations...and though they are all different and unique in their own way, there is a special bond that connects through all of them. after the meeting we went to guppies for yet another night of shaved ice and fruit-ah. we were actually supposed to go to pinks in la but everyone was lagging, so we opted to wait an hour for our food instead of drive and hour for our food. that night was fun...i never knew playing/watching hackey (sp?) sack in a parking lot could be so entertaining.
Wednesday: "spontaneous" trip down to san diego for....yup, you guessed it....carne asada fries!!! and friends of course!!! =) we ate at super sergio's and guess what?! sergio was actually working!!! he had a big cowboy belt on and black curly hair...cool guy, i must say. met up with chellebe, fran, & joyce and ate at extraordinary deserts! YUMMY!!! so many memories in san diego...thanks to derrick, mel, kirsten, gian, joyce, fran, and chellebe for hangin' out and eating with me. i love san diego!!!
Thursday: clubbing at the dirtiest club on the face of the earth with derrick, gian, kirsten, and jenny. i have never been so diiiiirty coming home from a club! come to think of it, it wasn't even a club...it was more like a strip club!!! YUCK. well, at least i had lots of fun dancing. it was an experience to...an experience never to be relived again!!!
Friday: going away dinner at old spaghetti factory!!! =D it was soooo much fun!!! i had a great time walking around the tables with my wine in my hand and friends at my side!!! thank you to everyone that came that night. your presence there means more to me than i could ever express to any of you using words. one of my fondest memories of my life here in socal will be that night, walking into that room and seeing all of you there. i have never felt more blessed in my entire life. if i could have one wish for all of you, it would be that you would one day feel extremely loved, as i did, that sacred night.
Saturday: met up with some of the past & present directors of LOG to talk about our long-awaited mission statement. disappointed at the turn-out, but grateful for those who came, and content with all that we had discussed that morning. i wish that more alumni could come back and see how much this family has grown...i know that we all have our own lives to lead and our own things to take care of, but i pray that the old members of LOG never forget their first family here at interfaith, and that they always remember the place where their seeds of faith were planted and/or cultivated into a rich harvest.
Sunday: bonfire at balboa. that's another thing that i'm gonna miss...BONDfires. we can't have bonfires up north because it's too cold...so cold that you can't even start a fire. that's how cold it would be at the beach. they don't even have bonfire pits because bonfires are unheard of up there. man...i was again surrounded by the most beautiful people in the world. of course, with fran, reg, and joyce there how could anyone keep a dry eye?!? sheesh.
...so then the next few days up till today i stayed busy packing, all the while trying to push back the thoughts of leaving that kept creeping into my head. but, as hard as i may try to push those thoughts away, there will be a day that i will have to face them, and i believe that day has come.
He never said it was going to be easy. He only promised that it would be worth it.
there really are no words. i''ve started this paragraph about a million times, and nothing seems to be able to express how i feel right now. i just can't...
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
anybody need a corner desk????Monday, August 01, 2005
three names you go by:1. dianne.
2. dee.
3. deehaw.
three screen names you have had:
1. deez2nutz28.
2. deehaw1028.
3. imnotsobigonaimscreennames.
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. my hair.
2. my neck rolls.
3. my ever-expanding tummy pouch.
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. my bad posture
2. my hairyness…EW.
3. my boobs…back problems, ya heard?!
three parts of your heritage:
1. catholic.
2. filipino.
3. american.
three things that scare you:
1. failure.
2. change.
3. not being on the right path.
three of your everyday essentials:
1. eat.
2. love.
3. pray.
three of your favorite musical artists:
1. kelly clarkson.
2. mariah carey.
3. audience of one. HEEEEY!!!
three of your favorite songs…OF THE MOMENT:
1. jesse mccartney’s beautiful soul.
2. side a’s forever more.
3. noon mass choir’s be not afraid.
three things you want in a relationship:
1. faith.
2. hope.
3. love.
three lies and three truths in no particular order:
1. i love harry potter.
2. i have one sister and three brothers.
3. i love boba.
4. i’m afraid of driving on bridges above water.
5. i love sushi.
6. i’m very organized.
** TEN POINTS to the one who gets all of them correct!!! =)
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. sexy arms.
2. charming smile.
3. a body i can grab onto…skinny guys = yuck.
**don’t worry babe, you’re 2/3 there!!! haha…just kidding!!!
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. reading.
2. scrapbooking.
3. watching movies.
three things you want to do really badly now:
1. get finished packing…this quiz isn’t helping me much.
2. get my hair done.
3. stay here forever.
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. director of a parish’s pastoral ministry.
2. stay at home mom.
3. principal of an elementary school…i’m workin’ on this one!
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. hawaii.
2. philippines.
3. europe. =/
three kids’ names you like:
1. Isaiah.
2. Michah.
3. Gabriel.
**haha, i like boy names more than girl names. btw...no stealing!!!
three things you want to do before you die [no particular order]:
1. get married.
2. have kids.
3. travel the world.
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i’m not a neat person.
2. i have a lot of pride.
3. i can’t cook.
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i love getting my nails and hair done.
2. i love to shop.
3. i have excellent woman’s intuition…right, Gian?!
three celeb crushes:
1. brad pitt.
2. matt damon.
3. daniel radcliffe…betcha don’t know who that is!!!
now it's your turn! FOUR people that i would like to see take this quiz now:
1. noreen.
2. regina.
3. pia.
4. dexie…haha, guess you’re little “secret blog” is gonna have to be revealed!!!
there are no words...
my only wish is that more people in this world were blessed with friends like mine. whoever said that angels only reside in heaven is wrong. i live among angels, and i feel truly blessed. i love you all.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Please join us for a BONFIRE tonight at CDM...We'll be there at 6 pm.DEE's GOODBYE BONFIRE!!! by DAV
Thursday, July 28, 2005
I GOT IN!!!!!!!woohooooo!!! most people know that i was fortunate enough to get in to the 2 schools i had interviews for (NDNU & Holy Names) a few weekends ago...so, i was planning on attending NDNU in the Fall because it's closer to my house and it's a nicer campus and i had a better feeling at that school. i registered for my classes and everything, so it was all good to go.
THEN......i got a call from my first choice school this afternoon: the UNIVERSITY OF SAN FRANCISCO, and i've been accepted! woohoooo!!! i was so excited when i got the call. so praise God and thank you to all who have been praying for me and encouraging me and supporting this new path in my life! i really appreciate all of your warm thoughts and prayers that were definitely heard.
so, i'm making plans to register for USF now...and yes, david and i will be classmates! haha...it's kind of funny actually. i always thought it would have been cool to know him when he was going to UCI, but now we'll officially be USF Master Don's together. =)
it's going to be so exciting!!!
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
i don't really have too much time to blog right now, but i thought i'd jot down a few words just because i have a lot to say.this past weekend was...in a word...memorable. i got a chance to talk to some people that i haven't really talked to before, and i had a few chances to re-connect with some others that i haven't talked to in a long time. laughs were plentiful, and so were the tears though few had seen them. revelations about oneself and one's friends had come into the light...there's something about vegas that brings the truth out, i think. maybe it's just being away, or being surrounded by love, or perhaps it was the alcohol. but then again, the emotions continued way after the effects of a drink had passed.
there is a beauty in going to mass in a church you've never been to before. you look around at walls you've never seen before, listen to a priest whose voice you've never heard, and feel music that could have very well come from a place like interfaith. yet, you still feel at home. you break down the walls of the building and take away the music and strange faces, and you are left with your loving friends by your side, and a God that surrounds you all.
let the countdown begin.
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In the year 381, a strangely demented man ran through the streets of Lyons, wildly brandishing a sword wounding and killing several people. The man then dashed into the Cathedral seeking asylum from the enraged crowd. Bishop Just intervened and agreed to remand the man to the authorities and then be given a fair trail. No sooner had Bishop Just done this than the angry mob seized the man and murdered him. The Bishop’s failure to protect the man weighed heavily upon his conscience. Bishop Just made the decision to leave his diocese and spend the rest of his life in penance as a monk in the Libyan Desert of Egypt. Viator, Bishop Just’s ever-faithful and loyal disciple followed him into exile. It was thus that the lives of Viator and Bishop Just are inextricably bound in history.
Bishop Just and Viator did not reveal their identities to the community of monks and did not return to Lyons until they died and the bodies of Just and Viator were placed in the Cathedral until their final resting place could be prepared in the Church of the Macabees. By the fifth century the cult of these two faithful servants of God had spread throughout France.
It is not surprising that in the year 1830 Father Louis Querbes of the Diocese of Lyons chose Viator as the patron saint for a long-lasting dream of founding a Congregation whose main focus would be devoted to teaching youth, especially the poor, and serving parishes in all matters related to the liturgical practice; in his words: "to teach Christian Doctrine and to serve the Holy Altar," and this primarily in neglected rural areas. His Congregation would, therefore, be officially named "The Clerics or Catechists of Saint Viator," now known as the Viatorians.
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for i know the plans that i have for you ... plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you. you will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart.
i will make you a light of the nations, so that my salvation shall reach to the end of the earth. i have inscribed your name in the palm of my hand.
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